Thursday, March 22, 2012


A womb that is barren is never fulfilled...  Until God fills the arms of one that is barren.  As a women I know what God created us to be and do.  WOMB-Men.  Seriously.  God created us to be care takers, to serve, to help, to love, to nurture,  and I dont think God meant animals. Serious I see according to Gods Word it means babies, you, children, and people. Dogs and animals are nice but seriously this day and age people treat their animals like babies.  I am guilty as I have went threw these 10 years of barrenness 4 to 5 of them I too have had 5 dogs 3 cats and two sets of puppies. So I to am guilty.  But what I found when  they grew up and grew Not new anymore I was done with them. and I would find homes for them.  Tonight I realized a newness of a baby, the velveteenness of a babies new born head, those small feet,  chunky money of hands,belly, the fun of a growing baby into a toddler and all the cute things they do NEVER NEVER gets OLD.  Even the hard times of rearing I find my self longing to go back into having those times with another one and another one... I have Decision. Psalm 5: 3-6 We didnt even consult Him.  My heart bleeds these years since we have had a Reversal and NO babies have come about.  But you know what I have found out after no matter how God gives you baby, child, he gives you that love, that "Agape" Love for another human being regardless of how it comes.  Adoption is a hard, plan and simple regardless of where you are adopting.  It is Hard. I have found out it is Not for the faint hearted.  You have to have determination, you have to be ready when all hell breaks loose cause it can, you have to be ready for the unexpected, you have to be ready to keep walking even when you are getting opposition from all sides and TRUST GOD to work all that out, you have to be determined no matter how bad it hurts that people are not happy for you at the time, that people dont understand, that this is not popular, people dont accept it, and sometimes churches and even good christian people.  You have to know whom has called you to this Journey and you have to know for whom you serve. You serve a MIGHTY GOD , and SAVOIR JESUS CHRIST.  That is who you serve not man so women and men and families I want to encourage you to Live like there is No tomorrow, For this world is very SHort,  the next is VERY VERY Long, So live for what WILL Last FOR ETERNITY.  Make your LIFE Count.  Live for the one who HOlds your hands who can make all your dreams come true according to His Will.  If you take a Chance and Trust HIM in it.  There is a verse in the Bible that says the Barren will have more children than she can imagine.  I heard of a Precious family who have been Barren for many many years she has 18 adopted children and just had her 1st biological child and she just adopted another child.  Who is to say you are not missing out on your calling, God may truly want you to adopt before he gives you the desires of your heart.  How many people have put God in a box and wants to live nice and safe with there own family and has missed out on the real joy of life by just losing to own life to Love another and gaining their life back in taking care of Gods children?  Just a thought tonight. I am not God but the pain of being barren has showed us its Not about us and we have chose to let God fill our home however way he sees fit. I dont know if we would of ever adopted if we had been able to have babies naturally but for this I am glad as painful as it is because I am getting children who dont have mommy's and daddy's to come love them. We are literally saving a lives.  Foster care in America is great, Adoption in America is great you, Can changed a life forever. Adoption from International Countries you are literally SAVING A LIFE.  A lot of these children who don't get adopted at certain ages get put in Invalid Homes never to see the light of Day. And if they make it past that at age 16 in many countries they must leave the orphanages with no place to go.  They live in the sewers, under bridges, a life I would not desire for my worst enemy living.   It doesnt matter where these babies, children, boys , girls come from they are still a child of God and I can still be there mommas and love them just the same.  Lord fill my vast over flowing.  With Kolya, Lords will be done, Chance and my precious Jordy whom I have not forgot.  I am praying him a home or someone to adopt him.  He is very far away even farther away than Kolya and Chance.  But I will not in Jesus Name let him go into an institution just because he has an auto immune disease and he is not in perfect health. He is healed by Jesus Blood and I claim complete newness of his body.  Please come together and help me find Jordy a home or that God will provide to bring them all home.  I cant put a price on a soul.  To me they are priceless.  We are to be Jesus Hands and Feet.  Our Resources are NOT Ours.  I go back to the book of Acts whoa they gave to those who needed not only in Money but in resources.  We as the Body of Christ can come together and take Care of Jesus Business by Helping one another to Change Childrens LIVES who desperately need a home, A family.  Every Penny counts to Jesus, you give what you Can and Let Jesus Do the Rest. He looks upon the Heart not the out side.  Lord pour New Wine Skins on to every person that reads these pages and impress on them to help in some way. Our time is closer and we want to bring out baby home and Lord willing older son IF GOD opens those doors back up for Kolya. We have a Lifesongs sidebar to collect the funds for our Adoption and it is tax deductible.  Get on Gods Boat and see where he will take you. You may enjoy it.

Tuesday, March 20, 2012

GOD Is Always On TIME!!!!

Do you ever get weak?  Do you ever get Weary. Well let me tell you Sunday was one of those days.  That morning I was just tired and I just started praising and Praying. We as a family are doing wonderful had a wonderful day Saturday fishing at a wonderful camping area a picnic lunch. It was awesome.  Sunday was a great day to but in my spirit I just felt the miss of missing what you know should be at your house and in your home and knowing that they are missed and desiring to be closer to them some how.  So that morning I just stayed in bed a little extra and prayed and asked God to give me a little extra Hope.  Well I cant go into detail but God did exceedantly and abundantly more than what I could ever Ask, Hope or Dream and I am walking on clouds knowing my God cares for me and He met me right where I was that moment in time and He has given me the desire of my heart.  I am thrilled and its enough Hope to get me threw the next moment in time. Please do not stop praying.  We need 3 things to happen a Referral 1st and for most, then we need a court date, then we have to wait the 30 days to be able to start our new life with 5 or 6 heads total which ever God decides.  Please intercede for us and Gods children that need a mommy and Daddy.  We are willing, we are able,  we are ready, send US.  Make our Path straight.  Move those Mountains lead us through still waters.

Monday, March 12, 2012

Trusting even when you cant see anything.

A long a weary Road where the fruit grows in the Valley.  My husband amazes me.  We got the opportunity to speak in Charlotte this weekend and my husband did a fabulous job.  Amazes me how he ties heroes in to being a Samaritan.  He had not only the Adults attention but the children too they was so good.  The food was out of this world delicious and it was great seeing everyone.  We are at a stand still right now waiting.  Doing what we do best these days.  It seems very sad that things seem to take such a long time when all you really want to do is give a child/ children a loving home with two parents that will adore them.  I just dont understand this concept. I had  wonderful opportunity to spend time with some great friends that shared about the times when all you had to do was go to the orphanage and sign a piece of paper and get the child you wanted out of the orphanage.  They was missionaries in Brazil for 11.5 yrs. They remember those days.  Oh how nice it would be to be back at those days. I would have me a whole passel of them. I found this today and I just had to share.... Be ENCOURAGED GOD IS ON THE THROWN NO TEAR IS WASTED,  No emotion is ignored God has a plan..  Refiners fire LET IT RAIN LORD.  We want to be used by you at all cost.
I questioned:  Why Lord?  Why would you require this of me; of my hard-working husband?  And if I’m honest with myself…Lord I’ve been obedient to you in this area of my life, now why then won’t you make things easy?
I know this is a small trial.  Women have endured much worse, and I probably will too someday.  But as children of God, when we are vulnerable, when we are weak, when we face things we wish we didn’t have to is when we are most refined.  We find ourselves in a place where we realize the Lord is calling us to lean on Him more heavily. The valley is the place we learn.
As Voddie Baucham says, “In some ways our lives are like a tube of toothpaste.  You don’t really know what’s in there til you squeeze it and see what comes out”
If I am squeezed and a sinful response of complaint and distrust comes out, I know I have a long way to go.
If I am squeezed and an unexplainable dependence and trust in the Lord is what comes out, I can know that He is conforming me to His image.
Even the sparrow finds a home, and the swallow a nest for herself, where she may lay her young, at your altars, O Lord of hosts, my King and my God.  Blessed are those who dwell in your house, ever singing your praise! Psalm 82:3-4 ESV
I can rest because I know God has put me in this place, and that He even provides a nest for the birds to lay their young.  I can yield myself up to His perfiect providences.  Any control I thought I had was an illusion anyway. He holds me in His arms and can I be unsafe where He has placed me?  I can let go of restless uncertainties and anxious desires.  I can abide, as David did, under the shadow of the Almighty.
What trials or sudden disappointments are you facing today?  Financial hardships, marital strife, infertility, rebellious children or burdens within your life that no one knows but you and the Lord?  May we all step willingly and joyously into the refiner’s fire, knowing that our God will show Himself faithful, that trials produce endurance, which produce character, which produce hope (Romans 5:3-5).